What is mindfulness?


I have seen many times, people use this word freely… Often, under-valuing the spiritual sense of this word in the effort to look spiritually rich.

Take for example, if someone accidently poured water on the table… That is not lack of mindfulness! That’s just plain carelessness! Or perhaps just a momentary muscle spasm!

And this is how we downgrade something as important as this… To merely refering things that are going on in the outside or our surroundings.

But then, what really is mindfulness? The shortest way to explain it is our ability to look within and observe the unconscious experience we produce under varied circumstances. How we perceive things directly affects our actions and emotions, so being mindful is not only about serving a cup of tea without dripping tea everywhere… Its about how aware you are about the roots of your reactions.

So, the next time someone tells u that u lack mindfulness for spilling some tea… Rejoice that ure mindful enough to not give him/her a nice slap across the face, because u have identified ur ego and decided to perceive it differently. Hahaha


A jar of happiness?


Very often, I feel like this girl in the picture… Feeling safe within my own space, in control of what comes in and out of my world.

Remaining oblivious to the world around me means I dont need to think too much that is beyond what I perceive necessary. And its comfortable… It is safe… And for a long time, I thought I’m creating my own happiness, in that tiny jar.

But eventually… it gets suffocating. When u lock yourself up so tight in that jar, and if u do it long enough, the lid gets sealed tighter with ever passing minute… Until eventually, nothing can come in, and u cant get out. And it doesnt matter if u have a million toys to play with inside that jar… Eventually, everything rots and you’re left with nothing.

There really is nothing eventually, in our own self created world and what we thought brings happiness, doesnt really work if we’re still stuck in that tiny space.

So, loosen that lid… Get out of that tiny space. Once you’ve done that, only then u can truly be free.

Our Happiness


Very often, we think that we shape our own happiness… But truth is, we allow others to shape our happiness.

As much as we like to say that we are in control of all aspects in life… In reality, we’re not even in control of our own emotions, because we are not in control of our own mind.

We allow the people around us determine out happiness.. we allow people to affect us, pull us down….

We allow our environment to affect our happiness, and allow our wants and dont wants dominate, taking away our peace of mind.

But when we sit and think about it, why do we even allow something like this to happen? Isnt the whole point of life and the things we chase after is all due to our delusion… That those items will make us happy? Why is it that intelligent people like u and I fall for this trap over and over again?

Then we get to know, great Dharma practitioners, who meditate in the forest… They have nothing and no one, and yet they experience bliss.

And then here I look around me, i see people that own everything and people that own nothing, both chasing after happiness, but neither found it.

Happiness is found within… Nothing in this world can change that fact. Once we fully understand that from the very core of our being… Then we will understand that all this while, we were participating in a lossing race.

Today, as I write this thoughts of mine in the Ladrang. I must say… I am glad the game, is over for me

Sarah Yap

Pursuing a divine relationship.


Every moment and effort spent to get closer to you, is time well spent.

Your very being, brings out my true goodness, the epitome of a beneficial relationship.

I wish to know you in this life, and may through the merits from this closeness formed… Take me home to your paradise.

Sarah Yap